you gotta have a plan

planning, not my favorite past time, actually not a past time at all.... I've always been the one that just goes with the flow. recently though as of a year or so ago, i did start to become more organized with schedules and calanders. i had too, with three jobs, four kids, and a partrige in a pear tree....... Now i need my little red book before i schedule anything.... my mind isn't like it used to be.

today is "supposed " to be my last day on steroids. finished up this am. i kept my eating under control this time....... maybe it was the nausea caused by the antibiotics... maybe i have just been tired of being layed up for so long....... whatever the maybe is.......... I just don't have an appetite..... obviously, since my portions of food that i now eat have decreased dramaticly, i am thinking i should go with this and keep it up.

I miss my hiking, and i must be patient, don't want to screw this surgery up. BUT i am looking forward to doing Curves on thursday. I am soooooooooo out of shape, i don't remember being this out of shape, for two months i've almost been bed/chair ridden with my foot propped up on big pillows. and before that, with the cast, shots, ect.... my foot has been out of commission for it will be a year in March.......

i just started back to work as a nurse at the all boys prep school near me. yesterday was my first day.......and i must say.......it feels so good to be back, it feels like i am getting my life back.
i have to wear this big black boot/cast when i am on my foot for more than a couple of hours. Doc told me to actually listen to my foot........ didn't even know the damn thing talked. So i am trying to listen for pain and discomfort, or using it too much, or not using it enough.

I am finally starting to feel better from the lung/sinus /bronchial infection. I guess the steroids have helped...... i am taking mega doses of C and Zinc, and drinking alot of fluids and eating heatlhy to try to build up my suppressed immune system......

Planning, back to that...... if i am going to eat right, i am going to have to plan.... plan a grocery list, plan menus, make plans and prepare for events in my life.... i.e. parties, dinners out ect. there is No reason why i can't eat out....... Bill and i went out on friday...... i didn't feel like eating a meal, so i looked on the appetizer menu, and the side menu and made my own plate.... a crab cake (80% lump crab, 20% other ingredients) fresh tomato and mozarella salad, and steamed zuchini. i ate plenty, felt good, not bloated. didn't even disire dessert. and last week i when i went out.......i was hungry for dessert..... so i ordered a shrimp cocktail for my dinner, and then enjoyed 1/2 serving of a turtle cheese cake. Patti, is teaching me, and she didn't even know it.
Also, i am planning in advance the days i am going to curves....... and scheduling them just like an appointment... my work schedule is 2-7/8 evening shift 3 or 4 days a week so as soon as my youngest gets on the bus.........i'll go to curves at least 3 days a week. i will treat it just like an appointment.......and hopefully soon i'll be up on my mountain...... :) i doubt before Patti, Moni and Kim come.......but there are some nice flat trails i could be starting before then... we shall see.

That is my plan.......... it's not about starting fad diets, or fancy exercise programs.....its about living and making smart choices...... and finally freeing the spirit to soar, regardless of the body size.......... living life.....as it only comes around once........