39 years old today

Where does the time go? Yesterday I was a little girl, no worries living with my mom and dad, they are both gone now........... And I have a family of my own. I hope that when my daughter and sons are this age.........That at least I am alive. That way, they won't get this lonely feeling that I so often feel. I miss my mom so much, she's been gone six years, she was an awesome lady, I could have still learned from her. Daddies been gone 12 years. They both died so young. Today is my only day off in between a 10 day stretch, tomorrow is the 18 hour work day, and Friday is the 16 hour work day....... My son's surgery is next Tuesday........ I will prob crash with him. My in laws are here, and they keep me very busy, I don't see them getting out for another month. I think my father in law, even with his occasional confused mind, is more deeply involved with the drug dealing business with his heroine addicted excuse for a human being son. I will NOT tolerate any behavior, even so much as a phone call at my house. It was too weird last night.... At 11:oo pm, he gets a call, and "someone comes to visit him," in a huge rental center truck........ To "drop off" money. And just say hi.......... ummmmmm, yeah right, someone 25 miles away, just had to stop in. You know how some people just know, that something is going on............ That's me, I hate it, but I know things, too well sometimes.... It's a skill of just reading people and feeling the situation. My poor invalid mother in law..... She is too ill, and has no control....... She new something went on, and she told me as much after the fact, she was just shocked that I picked up on it. Dang it man, this will not occur around my children in my house.
now I gotta let aging protective services in on it......... So my father in law can be investigated too. Mom told me a lot about his involvement. How he takes the son to pick up the "stuff" and all that crap..........
oh well, kids are getting up, and my day is going to be busy........So I'll talk to you all later.