Sandi...........stop your whining

yesterday I left home for a job at 5:30 am, returned at 11:00 pm...... started out today leaving for work at 6:30 am, and will return tonight at midnight......... i am so tired, but loving and appriciating my family so much....going thru this makes me so proud of my kids....... they are picking up the slack at home. and they are helping with the "grandparents". Wow i am overwhelmed to know that I am raising loving, caring, selfless human beings. my Children are my greatest accomplishment in life. for my birthday they went together and got me a beautiful weeping willow cherry blossom tree, they are beautiful trees.

Yesterday was my son Coreys one year anniversary with Us, he's doing well. And I truly beleive after a life time of heartache, and moving from foster home to foster home, Corey finally feels like he belongs, He knows that I love him, and just because he isn't perfect, I unconditonally love him......Corey my beautiful boy........... welcome home!!!!

I am here at work right now....... I work as a school nurse at a boys boarding school. beleive it or not........... i really like this age.... go figure i enjoy teenagers.

my last several blogs have been overwhelming,.......... and to be honest, I was completely overwhelmed, and hanging on by the edge......... I have the possibility of my husband going on stike this week, (there is a good chance), I am taking care of my two fragile in law parents, because of the strike, i am working 3 jobs, with taking care of my mother in law (who needs bathed, medications given, oxygen, proper nutrition,) I am easily working 18 hour days some days. my son goes in for surgery next tuesday..........I have No right to complain or whine, or worry.... I spoke with God, He knows what I am capable of. and I need to trust Him that all will be right. How Lucky i am, i have these jobs to fall back on if my husband strikes, making the same income as he brought in. there are others that do not have that luxury, I love my jobs and the people i meet, just another blessing. it's wonderful to help my in laws slowly dig out of the hole they put themselves in. Our family is getting to know them on another level. My children are learning about compassion and caring for others. Wow, aren't i lucky that we can financially take care of them right now, gee, how lucky i am to have the room and means to take care of them, since redoing our home......we added 2000sq feet more of living space....

I am blessed that my son's problem is fixable, there are many out there who's children can't be fixed......

I am blessed with a husband that goes out of his way to make my life easier, who's the greatest step father in the world. who puts my needs before his....

I am blessed with my four children, Katie , Drew, Corey, and Sam.

I am blessed with jobs that i love. that i didn't ask for, or apply for.... but that God thought I should have.

I am blessed to have a Father and Savior who loves me unconditionally, even when i get snotty with Him.

I am blessed with a beautiful home, filled with love and laughter ( um, most of the time )

I am blessed with an X Husband, who is the father of my kids, for being such a great dad.

I am blessed that my Husband and X husband get along so well, for my childrens sake

I am blessed with optimisum...

I am blessed with wonderful friends


Father, You have blessed me so much....... I need to trust you more. yes my situation is "overwheming" right now........ but thank you, for carrying me through it.